Long time no see people... Have been kinda busy, besides lappie screwed up... Fuck.

Last Friday, was May's B'day. Bought a cake and KFC and all... Plan changed all of a sudden and then looked as though things went haywire, but no... Things turned out for the better... Thank God! Lol.. Had a lot of fun.. Laughing and eating. Never like this in my workplace... Lols.. Next is Sharul's birthday..

Mother's Day sucked for me. Parents were fighting... Don't ask me what coz i dunno. Mom's has been nagging since yesterday and trust me it hurts my ears like hell.. Sigh, if only there's a stronger bonding between me and my family....

I've been crying a lot for the past few days... Miss grannys alot... I hope she understands that it's not that i don't wanna let her go, but it's more of i miss her loads.. Wish you were here and kiss me once more... *Cries*

I don't feel like schooling anymore...but i force myself to. At least for my parents who have so high expectation on me. I don't wish to disappoint anyone particularly my father. Yes, i know he can get on my very last nerves, but come to think about it, he's just the way he is because of my well being... But frankly speaking? I've no more motivation to study... Someone out there, gimme the motivation and inspiration for me keep on studying!

Friends and i aren't that good either. Again not their fault but mine.... I'm not always in whenever there's an outing..... Oh, and when i mean friends, it means all you out there... The queenies and also shama and co. Like i explained a long time ago, i just dunno why i feel like isolating myself from ya guys... Not that you're all bad influence or whatsoever...but it's just me. I feel as though i don't belong with you pple.... But then again, that's because i'm going crazy to come out with such stupid thoughts.

I feel like no one needs me in this world. I don't know why i feel such way. Everyone has a life out there but it seems like i don't. Hahas... I dunno if this is good or bad... But one thing i believe...I don't belong in this living world i guess... Bcoz i feel unwanted...

Haha... i know me and my blabberings again... Oh well it's not as if pple's gonna read it either..

Ciaos....

Thinking Cap

If women are supposed to be less rational and more emotional at the beginning of our menstrual cycle when the female hormone is at its lowest level, then why isn't it logical to say that, in those few days, women behave the most like the way men behave all month long?

Khairunnisa Elias

31.08.1988
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