Wednesday, December 13, 2006, 9:52 PM
This is not me.This is so not me.This is not what i am inside.No, this is wrong. Very wrong.But do i have a choice?No i don't.Because i can't survive out there if i reveal too much of myself.Because i don't think there is anyone out there who can accept me for who i am.Because i'm just not part of them-my social circle and family. I don't belong anywhere!No not at all!Why?
Why?
Why don't i feel secure with them?
I just don't know....
Each time i get the courage to show the world the real me, i'm either neglected or scorned. Laughed at!It's better to hide than to show.I am not what you see.I laugh with all of you.I do things together with all of you; be it right or wrong.I do things for you.But it is not me.I'm just being someone whom all of you want me to be. Someone who you can call a 'trusted friend' when you're in need, and dump me when i'm no longer needed. And don't ever expect me to ever tell you what's the problem with me.Because i won't tell.Because i don't want to be helped.Because i just prefer being a figment of reality.Just leave me to my dreams,where i am me...not someone i'm not.Will the day come when i feel free to be myself?
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Thinking Cap
If women are supposed to be less rational and more emotional at the beginning of our menstrual cycle when the female hormone is at its lowest level, then why isn't it logical to say that, in those few days, women behave the most like the way men behave all month long?
The bitch
Khairunnisa Elias
31.08.1988
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