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Friday, August 03, 2007, 3:55 PM

Hello i'm Khairunnisa Elias and i'm turning 19 in less than a month time. I am studying in a pathetic school named as Republic Polytechnic and i'll graduate in probably a year to two years time. I'm majoring in Biotechnology, something which i despise with every last fibre. Don't ask me why i chose this course because i myself haven't figure out the reason for it.

Right now my life seems to be bright as nothing bad has happened yet and i hope it'll be that way. Well, nothing good has happened too and i'm hoping something good happens to me. I love my family and friends a lot. Actually it's more than a lot. My world revolves around them and let's hope it remains that way.

I love working at 7-Eleven even though my pay is sooo little. I love working there because my colleagues are very adorable people. You have to get to know them, they are very nice people even though they can drive you crazy every now and then. =)

I love reading a lot as it keeps me away from the reality. I can be practical but most of the times i tend to seek refuge in my dream land. I love irritating people around me. It just gives me satisfaction to see their annoyed face. Well some people hate me for that but i could be least bothered.

I'm not someone who shows her deeper feelings to other people. It is difficult for me to open up to someone and tell him/her how i feel. None of my close friends know what i think about most of the times. And i wish for it to remain that way.

I like solitude as it allows me to think whatever i want to think about- be it problems or dreaming. My friends tend to worry a lot when they see me alone and gone all queit. I prefer myself being that way actually. It saves me some effort from talking and get involve in my friends' discussion.

I have very great dreams which i know i might not be able to see them come true. Nevertheless it doesn't stop me from dreaming about them. I just like to think about my dreams making me smile all alone in my room or in public. Of course most of my dreams are not being shared by my friends.

I love the rain a lot. Once it starts raining i feel that my mind is at peace. I feel that i can cross any formidable hurdles. I like to watch the world when it rains and i love the smell of fresh air making me smile like a fool. Most of the times i wish i can get wet in the rain and let all my problems wash away from me albeit momentarily.

I like the breeze on a quiet night as i like to feel the breeze caress my hair and embrace me. I feel so much serene when that happens. It makes me move away from reality and dream once again. At times like this i always wish i was at the beach, inhaling the salty air and listening to the waves crashing onto the shore. Sometimes i wish i was at a field, lying down alone with only the sky full of shimmering stars and the comforting breeze as my companion. I know i'll feel so good as though i haven't got a teeny bit of a problem in school, work or at home.

I adore beaches alot. Beach actually comforts my soul when i feel troubled. Usually i go there when i feel terribly down over something. Of course i can only go there when i possess the time to. I like to sit on the sands and feel them in between my toes as i watch the waves meeting the shores with the breeze opposing me. I also enjoy standing at the shore waiting the waves to hit my feet, making them cool when the breeze touch my wet feet while i breathe in a lung full of salty fresh air. It makes me feel i've just embraced paradise.

Kids and animals make me catch my breath. I really really am fond of them. They actually brighten up my day most of the times. They always make me wonder what it would be like to have a kid of my own or a pet of my own. As a matter of fact i do own a cat. And i love her alot even thoguh she's really spoilt. I think my family and I are the cause of it. I wish i could get a dog though. But i know i'll never keep one as my religion restricts me from having one. Well, it doesn't matter actually as i'm scared of them. =)

I hate being in crowded places. I feel like suffocating when i'm in such places. I can't even think properly. I hate banging onto people in attempt to walk past them to my destined place or people banging onto me. It ruins my mood and i'll be frowning most of the times.

I despise shopping and window shopping. I don't like walking about in malls and searching for something i need or something my friends need. It makes me frustrated and grumpy for the rest of the time. I hate being asked for comments if the product is nice or not nice or whatsoever.

I hate useless ranting over the phone. I prefer meeting up with people i want to talk to and sit and talk. There are some people i do enjoy talking to over the phone. 'Some' is an overstatement. 'One or two' is most likely acceptable. Of course if any of my friends have problems or need someone to share their feelings with, i'm more than willing to give a listening ear. But other than that i prefer to stay away from the phone most of the times.

There's a lot more to say about myself. But if i were to have typed down as a blog entry it's gonna take the whole page of my blog. So i think i better just stop here before i start on my rantings of myself once again for the next 24 hours.

Probably the difference between man and the monkeys is that the monkeys are merely bored, while man has boredom plus imagination.
-Lin Yutang

Need i say more? I suppose not.