Sonnet 17:
Who will believe my verse in time to come,
If it were fill'd with your most high deserts?
Though yet, heaven knows, it is but as a tomb
Which hides your life and shows not half your parts.
If I could write the beauty of your eyes
And in fresh numbers number all your graces,
The age to come would say 'This poet lies:
Such heavenly touches ne'er touch'd earthly faces.
'So should my papers yellow'd with their age
Be scorn'd like old men of less truth than tongue,
And your true rights be term'd a poet's rage
And stretched metre of an antique song:
But were some child of yours alive that time,
You should live twice; in it and in my rhyme.
First of all:
EID MUBARAK TO ALL MUSLIMS! So sorry for the hiatus. It's unintentional, i assure you. Just that i've been rather busy with the preparations at home for the festive season. Selamat Hari Raya to all of you. Maaf zahir dan batin. =) This is the fourth day of the festive season and i'm feeling sad because i'm not joining in the fun of celebrating. sigh.
But oh well, at least i gain something! I lost 4kg in total during the month of Ramadhan. Which is a good thing. But the bad thing is i gained 2 kg since the first day of Shawal. Now that sucks big time man. And i am working at it! I have to lose more weight. I hope i shed another 2 or 3 kg by the time i get my pay. I need to get a new pair of jeans and a couple of t shirts. And probably a high heels man. I need one really badly.
Ok i'm going random from now. Again i'm depressed. I mean really depressed. Sigh. I like Guy A and Guy B.
Guy B likes me alot and gives me alot of attention to me! But i don't exactly care actually. I'm more particular of Guy A giving me the attention that i'm expecting of him. Usually he will give me unknowing of my intention. =) And i'll like him more day by day.
Yesterday Guy A had to make me feel depressed. Sigh. =( He told me that if he could only find a girl of his race with my personality, he will be very happy. I was happy because he expects a girl with my personality, but it made me sad at the end of the day because this shows i stand no chance. Sigh.
Why can't he just like someone not his race? Does it make a big difference? I do not know seriously. Sucks man. Grrrr. But i don't care actually. I like our relationship now- friends. I think it's more than i can ask for. I just don't want my feelings for him jeapordize our friendship. It'll suck big time. =) I like him and that's all that matters.
People who have all the freaking idea in the world of what i am talking about please do not mention names in my tag!!!!! The last thing i need is for the whole world to know my not-so-secret secret. =)
Anyways chatting with Chin Hoe right now and i realise he's the only idiot who can make me go crazy and smile at his lame antics with sincere conscience. =) He can be an asshole most of the times but i like him for who he is. =) Sometimes it amazes me how i got to know this lunatic fella and i can't fathom my life without him. He is someone i can talk out all my problems with. Of course other than Ambujan. =)
My special friend:
