Sunday, December 02, 2007, 2:20 PM
If I could have just one wish
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and the feel of your heart beating with mine
Knowing that I could never find that feeling
with anyone other than you.
Courtney Kuchta
Seriously i'm so tired of this life already. How long am i going to lead a life like this? When will happiness come and find its way to my family? I seriously don't know.
I haven't been talking to my father for nearly two weeks already. I won't deny that i'm not liking it. But, whatever it is, he is my father. I know i should just let go of the past and move on. But i just can't seem to let go of the grudge i have on him. It was all because of him after all, that i got accused wrongly. Sigh.
I'm enjoying my life ever since i've resigned from my job. But somewhere, at the back of my mind demands me of getting another job. Some part of my soul plagues me of the source i'm going to get my monthly income. As much as i don't want to work, i have to. At least for the sake of my survival.
To make things worse, i told my mom i'm going to stand on my own feet. I'm going to pay off my school fees and my other expenses all by myself. Seriously, i don't know how i'm going to do it. But i'll never confide in my mom regarding this.
Home is not home right now. I don't call it home anymore. House is more like it. Just for the accommodation. Sigh.
And i'm so worried for her. Just like me, she's facing problems at home. And to add on with relationship problems. Pull yourself through alright? I just want you to know that you still have your girlfriends to back you up. We may not be by your side 24/7 but we will always be thinking of you and we will tryto help you as much we can. We'll get through this together alright? =)
Sigh you know i supposed all my girlfriends are facing problems too. Though theirs come in different forms, all of us feel the same emotions. Rollercoaster of negative emotions are not something we want to feel or want to be used to. But one thing for sure, we will survive. =)
Smile you're on candid camera!
Ok, this is random. But i actually gave my word to Linda that i'll have this picture posted in my blog. So here it is. Heh heh, candid and sweet! =)
